so spit it out now living in a world of bad intentions til you split just take it back how looking in the mirror never seemed so attractive the consequences of your fucking ego running wild send it back now don't fucking trust him all you've done has gone to shit so spit it out send it back send it back and spit it out

I'm done living a life of regrets I'm fucked up but I ain't fucking dead yet you'll never again have control of this body I claim it as my own and I'll learn to love it it's the same shit over over again but this time I know the ins and outs tore down that ugly wallpaper and replaced it with a void I'll never patch it up but I'll find a way anyhow turn your back and fucking walk away it's the same shit but a different day I'll burn an idol of you and melt the wax to the bone my ride's too fucked up and I wanna go home I killed the previous occupant of this body and replaced his soul with a laminated picture she drew I'll grow a pair of tits if it fucking kills me I sewed my regrets into the place where my womb should be I'll reshape myself in her own image if it tears me apart take my fucking body take my fucking heart give me the strength to smash his portrait and weep upon an altar apart a past that I'll tear apart

my stomach is rotting from the inside through in a never ending loop of coming out perilous education haunts my dreams might as well laugh and make it a meme my heart is fuller than it's ever been full of reinforced concrete it'll never break again outside my aura the tempest won't subside who fucking cares I'm just as pretty on the inside my body is an abandoned warehouse my blood coats these walls in an off-white shade full of debris I cannot repair a storm is coming my head is a black and white picture analog circuits house my thoughts a never ending rerun and a predictable twist I'd keep going but I think you get the gist take this vessel as my communion take this pillar as my shape carve a sculpture of me and fill me with love letters so that again I'll never break take me with you so I can feel safe again let me feel something before I die can I feel something before I die won't you feel something before I die help me feel something before I die

I don't wanna see myself in the mirror I don't wanna see my friends alive in this world walking down the street in a tall dark sweater trying to pretend that we are more than the weather we cannot compromise what we cannot see what if I never see if there's a future for me? or any of us, really didn't think we'd make it this far thought we'd pissed it all away and just fucked everything we cared away but here we are lying on the floor didn't think we'd make it out the door we thought we'd fucked it all up didn't think I'd make it this far don't wanna see you out here feeding off it imagine that you never knew yourself for shit talking past it all for your own dark image trying to convince us that we cannot seek repentance we mustn't let this system kill us from the inside out let's burn this fucking shit down and move on without a doubt and we'll have ours too didn't think we'd make it this far thought we'd pissed it all away and just fucked everything we cared away but here we are lying on the floor didn't think we'd make it out the door we thought we'd fucked it all up didn't think I'd make it this far I'm so happy I made it this far

I've got a bone to pick with this fucking scene I've got a bone to pick with crust punk abusers and boring men who the fuck gave you this authority? a total fucking lack of accountability I've got a bone to pick with this fucking scene burn it all down and lie and watch the shame the paragraph is neverending a broken heart a broken seam this parasite we're still defending a violent sleep this shit makes me sick same shit but a different day I just might sound sick but this won't go away who the fuck gave you this authority? a total fucking lack of accountability I've got a bone to pick with this fucking scene burn it all down and lie and watch the shame the very system meant to protect those most vulnerable has been perverted and used against them and they go along with it because he was never like that in front of them he was in that cool band but the real monster was him all along

I'll be the first one to breathe I'll be the first one lost inside the sound ensnared in the beat of the kick drum this frequency is my shield is my weapon split in two this persona of mendings second endings the pulse is never ending kept in a breve state crept in this fascist state kept in a muted fate don't sleep and don't be late I'll be the first one in line I'll be the first out of time I'll be the first one this time we'll be the first ones out of time unenabled mislabeled never truly able to walk in the sun but I won't be disabled when we tear it all down to its fucking core underwhelmed unintelligible screams fill the void but here we are you and I lost in the sound deterred yet determined won't stop us from determining their fate we'll be the first to build the guillotines out of broken promises and barbed wire the sound fans the flames of our fire illustrated and unbound you and I lost in the sound you and I kept in a breve state crept in this fascist state kept in a muted fate don't sleep and don't be late I'll be the first one in line I'll be the first out of time I'll be the first one this time we'll be the first ones out of time this body is rotten to the core this body's the one keeping score we'll show them what it means to keep score we'll show them what it means to be a whore we'll scream our fucking lungs out we'll fuck our bodies and hearts out we'll cry and leave them no doubt we'll cry and scream to get out we'll cry and scream so just get out wouldn't be the last time won't be the last time I'll be the first one won't be the last one I'll be the first one out of time

seven years without a son looking for a silent summer in the dawn seven times to hide and run looking for a way out through the winter fog seven chances to prove them wrong a volatile dance a choking song seven days is all I had left I hope you'll take this as my parting gift all my thoughts are blue and gray all my friends are sad and gay but I am fucking happy even if the world has gone to shit today even if I can sing a note and I can write a song but I can't find the words when you are next to me and I can play pretend I hope that you'll understand I'll hold you with my body as your tourniquet I bet you'd hope to hear me say I hate it all please go away but I am fucking happy even if the world has gone to shit today even if I can sing a note and I can write a song but I can't find the words when you are next to me and I can play pretend I hope that you'll understand I'll hold you with my body as your tourniquet and I can be your girl and I can be a lover, mother, sister like no other when I'm next to you and I can sing a fucking ballad we can cry and say its valid we can cry and say its valid with my body as your tourniquet I am fucking happy even if the world has gone to shit today even if with my body as your tourniquet

I will break into your thoughts with what's written on my heart I will break break I'm so sick, infected with where I live let me live without this empty bliss, selfishness I'm so sick I'm so sick if you want more of this we can push out, sell out, die out so you'll shut up and stay sleeping with my screaming in your itching ears I'm so sick, infected with where I live let me live without this empty bliss, selfishness I'm so sick I'm so sick hear it, I'm screaming it you're heeding to it now hear it, I'm screaming it you tremble at the sound you sink into my clothes This invasion makes me feel Worthless, hopeless, sick I'm so sick, infected with where I live let me live without this empty bliss, selfishness I'm so sick I'm so sick I'm so…